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Saturday, January 29, 2011

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Monday, September 6, 2010

You lubb me long time!!

Hey Butt heads!! how are all my loverly followers?!? Im sorry I haven't posted in so long!! I've been uber busy!! School started again! Im finally working on finishing my biology degree! Soo haappppiiiiieeeesssss!!!!! I could peeeessssss!!!! lol I'm such a nerd I just can't help it. I recently joined the row team at school!! I love it.. I think i've finally found my motivation to get back in shape. I've been running.. well actually walking/jogging.. I really hope I get to the point where I can keep up with the rest of the team. lol! Other than that there isnt anything going on! Kent and I are still dating.. well it's off and on.. but things are alright. He deploys super soon! Makes me want to cry!! Oh!! I'm part of some great websites.. and I'll add the links for those who are interested, but you can write soldiers and all it will cost you is a postage stamp!! It's super awesome! Of course we all know by now about the troops leaving Iraq, but there are still around 50,000 still there. And we also have troops all over the world! Not just in the middle east! Korea, Italy, Japan, Germany, Afghanistan, Pakistan, Honduras, Mexico.. just everywhere! How great it is to think you can be just brightening someones day with just a letter!! Just a letter!! Of course you can send packages and all sorts of stuff, like snacks and stationary, and just anything! Soldiers aren't always in the best places where they can buy all they need. And alot of soldiers don't get packages and even letters or postcards from home. Please pleasejust think of sending a letter to a soldier.


Sunday, January 17, 2010

You, my dear sir... are a whore...

hey Prostitues and Pimps
... what's going on whores and hoes?! I haven't posted in like evar!! Sorry... work, school, dumb Patrick problems :) im just kidding. Patrick and I are getting along wonderfully. We recently purchased Comic Con tix. So Me, him, his friends Kay and David are going as well. So four of us stuff in an explorer for 24 hours. So fun.. Im super excited about going though! I love San Diego!! I wish this was two years ago and Pat and I were still planning our move there. But it's not and that's okay. Things are better for me. I can't believe it only took like 6 months and things are like amazing!
I'm moving to Arkansas! I really want to move to California. But, my siblings and their wonderful kids aren't there. So vacations will work! :) I love my sisters and brothers!!! My nephew Tucker turned three today!! Im so bummed about missing his birthday, but I'm so excited that I'll be there for all the upcoming events from now on!! I'll be driving there way of kansas. I'm going to visit Patrick in his new house, that he shares with Kay. I'm so darn excited. He says he's excited as well... but he gets to keep out furry kids for about a month. So I bet he is!! Idk what I'm going to do without them!! I'm going to miss them so much!! But everything I do is in their best interest, I think they know. who knows!!
I was supposed to start school on the 18th of this month, but my truck wasn't able to be fixed in time. So I'll be started next semester.. this time I am def going to finish my biology degree! lol! I'm so excited! I'm almost done with my veterinary assistance certification. So that is soooo exciting... except alot of vet clinics are having to even lay off, and def not hiring. People just aren't taking their animals to the vet as often nowadays.
I was hoping to start my vlogs on youtube, for those of you who follow me, sometimes soon. But my cord that charges my camera, somehow fell into the bermuda triangle of my home. Now I have to buy a new one... and really a truck and moving are def way more important right now. But I will def have a new one in about a month. I'm so excited to get started on my vids again. I love making them!! I get alot of positive feedback on them!
That's really all that is going on in my life right now.. I move in 10 days and I'm soooo excited

peace my whore and hoes...

Love always,

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Larry Johnson is Gay?!?

Hola Everyone!

'So I haven't posted a blog in awhile! Sorry! I've been sick and have been
having butt surgery!!

I really wish I was joking.. I'm not...

I just realized my hair looks like a super-delicious Shane Dawson Wig.. wow.
So as most of you probably already know.. Im originally from
Lawrence Kansas.
My dad kind of made me be a Kansas City Cheifs fan.. like muh whole life! So.. I was reading the news on my blackberry from bed and had to make

a blog about this.. effing Larry Johnson making homosexual slurs on his
twitter.. uhmm..larry.. have you looked around lately?
Its 2009 for F's sake! So like, Im a Christian with mostly conservative values.

I don't really agree with I guess being gay. But I'm not one to judge.
I mean I don't really care. lol

I have a ton of Gay friends, we talk about it like once and it's done.
like it doesn't make me like those people any less.

And If someone was like talkin shit I would be the frist one to
stand up for them.. You feelin wanna go ahead and jump.. not really.. Im like 5'3 im not jumpin on shit..

So like Larry Johnson is like 80 yards from breaking Priest Holmes
rushing record.. and he comes out with

fags are gay.. Like.. Idk what it is with these celebrities who think
that they can say whatever they want.. I mean you are in the public eye.. Im sure thousands of people follow his twitter...prolly even some gays.. and he comes out with that crap..

You are stupid Larry.. Im kind of glad over 10,000 of
your fans have signed a petition to deactivate you :(

Well Im outta here.. back to my lovely bed.. to nurse my injured bum:)
You like it...

Oh and btw.. Preist is way cuter..

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Save Me

Do you ever feel just like lost? Like lately I just feel so lost, like I can't get a straight head about anything. I've been putting off school and of course, I hate my job. I don't really like Louisiana and I just want to move. I just want to feel content and feel like full, like everything is okay. I feel so lost.
I feel like I dont have God in my life. I pray, but I also sin. I sin in knowing that it is wrong. And I care and I want him to care about me. But I feel like I've gone too far and that I'm not even worth caring about. I dont study. I started a new home business, but yes, as it is fun, its not like what I want to do in life. It's not my passion. I want to move closer to my siblings, but everyday it feels like I'm being drawn closer to California. I just want to feel like accepted and like I'm doing exactly what God wants me to do.
This is going to sound so stupid, but I've been watching season 4 of hells kitchen on hulu. And, like how cool would it be to like know your passion and have the drive to be able to do it. I procrastinate so badly, and is that a sign? I mean, what? I just wish I knew something, I wish I had something more than I do.
I haven't talked to Patrick in like two weeks. I hope that he is happy. I don't even want to reach out anymore. I don't even really care. I wonder how he is doing, but besides that. I'm so happy that I have my kids around me and that they are happy and healthy. I just don't even know.

Please Save Me

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Pure Chaos

I like don't even know what I'm even like feeling anymore! It's surreal. Like, Im so lost in how much I want things to work out with Patrick, but I know I'm better off without him. I mean, in the five years we were together, I dropped out of school, lost jobs, like all this stuff. And no it wasn't because of him, but I was so lost in trying to be a house wife, I put my dreams on hold.
Him and I have been broken up for 7 months. I'm in school, I'm getting ready to move, and no not to kansas, but i do have to keep it secret!!! So in 5 months, when those who are to be surprised find out, you will too!! But it's totally scary doing this on my own. Like I was going through some old stuff and Pat and I, like our bills were over $1000.00 a month! I don't even make $1000.00 in a month! Like what am i supposed to do if things don't work out, or I dont have all the money for something? Like Im so scared that things are going to turn sour. I've always have back up. When I leave my parent's house, it's all on me. That is terrifying! Like horribly terrifying!
But besides being scared half to death, I am currently attaining my certification for Veterinary Assistance. it's not what I want my final career position to be, but it's a start, and those skills will always be necessary for a biologist, I do believe. I don't know. I feel like I fell behind, because I felt the need to party, instead of study (what the hell was i thinking?!?!). So now I feel like Im trying to rush and race and finish things. If I would have just done this all in the beginning, I would probably be where I want to be in life, and not being all weird and feeling akward about my life. I see friends from HS and JH and it's like what the hell?! Like if I knew then what I know now and could some how go back, I would have slapped myself silly!! But what is done is done and I don't regret it.
I'm hoping to go on vacation to CA before moving. My mom's HS friend Nita invited us out, and I really hope we can make it work. I don't want to always think of CA and how much fun I had, and always think of Pat. I love CA though, it's beautiful!

Anyway, I'm just rambling now!
Write more later!

Love Always,

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Isn't all that sad.

Please do not get me wrong, I'm terribly distraught that I won't be moving back to Kansas to work things out with Patrick. But at the same time, like, I'm really not that sad. We've been going back and forth since like, what, December? Im horribly sad, but Im not. I'm happy that this gives me the opportunity to find someone who loves God as much as they love me. But I think of everything Pat and I went through, he's still my best friend, and I cry. I bawl. But I guess nothing was meant to last forever. I miss him. Maybe I'm not that sad because I don't see him. I haven't for like 5 months. Maybe I'm not that sad, because I knew it would never work. Or maybe God has filled my heart with his love so I don't hurt as much. Whatever it is, I'm greatful. I feel happiness that it's over. No more fighting, no more any of it. I don't have to fight with his family, or beg to be treated to my standards. Not that he ever treated me bad, we just have different ideals of different things. Let me restate that...Patrick NEVER treated me badly. My heart is still with him. Part of me thinks that it always will be. Maybe we'll be together again one day, maybe we won't Only God knows, and I'd like to keep it that way. What I do know, is that him and I have our 5 babies, and they are well taken care of. We both still love them very much, and both are trying to be active in their lives. I'm glad he still cares, I'm glad he's still my best friend. I do wish him all the happiness the world can provide. I hope he finds what he is looking for.

I love you always,