Only God can help me now

I feel jipped. All of the memories that Patrick and I had, they are only mine now. I have no one to share stupid sayings with. I have no one to share a pic with an alligator or my first trip to the ocean with, or staying up late eating sheet cake instead of going to work. I feel like I have five years worth of memories that are only mine. I feel upset and sad and lonely. I don't understand. He says there is nothing I can do. He just doesn't feel anything for me anymore. How, after five years you just don't feel love for someone anymore? How do you forget all the memories and just leave them? How do you leave someone that needs you so much? I need him. And he just acts like things are fine, like it's alright. I've come to accept that God is the only one I can depend on. I guess I need to focus on him and and how I can devote my life to him. I'm scared. I have nothing here. I wish I would have never moved to Louisiana. It was the worst decision I've ever made. I don't know anymore.