Trying to keep busy...

I've been trying to keep busy today. If I sit for too long just to chill, I start thinking about Patrick and our now demolished relationship. I've cleaned my bathroom, Living Room, Kitchen, just about everything today. I've read and watched Kung Fu Pandan and played with my boys.
Last night we got hit with a really bad storm and our electricity went out around 8pm and was restored this morning around 11am. Since then, our internet and tv have been out. but were just recently restored. So all is good in the hood:)
I've decided that maybe Patrick and I aren't the end of the world. Of course I still love him and would love to be with him, but if he no longer wants to be with me. Then obviously, nothing I can do! So I've decided to hopefully get a job here in town. It's a really small town, Many La. There are only two job openings that I qualify for, and really other than occupational therapy, those two jobs are the only ones around. So I'm going to apply and hopefully get one of them. Once doing that I'll save, put a down payment on tuition and then move to Arkansas.
As much as I would totally love to move to San Diego right now, I just feel Arkansas is were I need to be. My siblings and three nephews are there, so I'm totally stoked. It has completely thrown me off guard being on my own, but with God, I'm sure I can make it through.

God, it's so hard to find hope in my earthly trials! Comfort me today, and give me the strength to keep pressing on as I trust in your promise of my eternal freedom!