Larry Johnson is Gay?!?

Hola Everyone!

'So I haven't posted a blog in awhile! Sorry! I've been sick and have been
having butt surgery!!

I really wish I was joking.. I'm not...

I just realized my hair looks like a super-delicious Shane Dawson Wig.. wow.
So as most of you probably already know.. Im originally from
Lawrence Kansas.
My dad kind of made me be a Kansas City Cheifs fan.. like muh whole life! So.. I was reading the news on my blackberry from bed and had to make

a blog about this.. effing Larry Johnson making homosexual slurs on his
twitter.. uhmm..larry.. have you looked around lately?
Its 2009 for F's sake! So like, Im a Christian with mostly conservative values.

I don't really agree with I guess being gay. But I'm not one to judge.
I mean I don't really care. lol

I have a ton of Gay friends, we talk about it like once and it's done.
like it doesn't make me like those people any less.

And If someone was like talkin shit I would be the frist one to
stand up for them.. You feelin froggy..you wanna go ahead and jump.. not really.. Im like 5'3 im not jumpin on shit..

So like Larry Johnson is like 80 yards from breaking Priest Holmes
rushing record.. and he comes out with

fags are gay.. Like.. Idk what it is with these celebrities who think
that they can say whatever they want.. I mean you are in the public eye.. Im sure thousands of people follow his twitter...prolly even some gays.. and he comes out with that crap..

You are stupid Larry.. Im kind of glad over 10,000 of
your fans have signed a petition to deactivate you :(

Well Im outta here.. back to my lovely bed.. to nurse my injured bum:)
You like it...


Oh and btw.. Preist is way cuter..

Hate this right now.

I totally am tired of feeling regret. I'm tired of feeling that I'm not doing the right things. I'm not doing what people expect, what they want, what they think I should be doing. I want to move to Arkansas, I want to be near my siblings (well four of them). I want to see my nephews grow up. I don't want them to never know me. I don't want them to think of me as the Aunt that sends presents and they see every few months. But I feel like I'm the only person that feels like they are made for something more. I feel like I'm more than what Kansas or Arkansas can give me. I feel like I don't want to stay in one place and do one job. I hate monotony. I hate the same thing every day. I feel like I don't know. I don't want my Taryn or Moira or Sean or Brett or Daniel or Beth to ever think I don't love them. I don't want them to think because I haven't moved there yet, that I don't want to be with them. It's hard for me to think of being in one place and settling down. I mean is there something wrong with me because of that. Do I have a problem? I mean, is there something wrong. I feel as if I should put what I feel aside to be with the ones I love. I should fight the urge to run and to be on the move. I don't think this is what God had in store for me. I constantly feel like they are going to hate me. They are going to be disappointed or be like oh well she let us down again.
I love Patrick. Although I'm moving back to Kansas right now, it has never been intended to be permanent. I know he wants more from life, he wants to travel and we both want to move to SD, but he really loves Topeka. He loves being there. I can't do it. I love all of my family, but I'm unable to stay there. I can't do it.

I hope they don't hate me. This weighs on my conscious every day. And I'm sorry if it means I lied to you, I didn't mean to. I love you and I hope through all of this you guys still love me too. I'm sorry.